reintroduction::: welcome 09' [i know im late]

i'm going 2 switch gears a bit.because i don't wanna become

a... a.... hmm. well. something novelty & empty.

seriously.so in an attempt 2 TRULY self-assess,

i'm going 2 turn this sh*t inward.i hope U don't mind.uhhh.i sat in the house 2day.

i went out both thursday & friday nights. a bit of a rarity 4 me.

i danced a lot. cardio down. on top of the intense drinking in the afternoons.

so i owed myself a chill day.a day where i kinda 4got i was in new york. i was in....

d a v e land. lol. which is fine.

2day i really appreciated the new feeling of '09.

[FINALLY] calls, texts & BBMs from friends in the City and around i guess the world (funny huh pippy)& beyond.

& really thinking about what's important: happiness & progression.(shrug) i have a great feeling about this one.

so allow me to reintroduce myself::::::many of you might say you dont need no introduction but

in that case I can no longer speak to unfamilar people in my life.

signed "Hello Im Dave"

Before Class Real Quick....

School is getting to me...I have so much work to do but I like the pressure it motivates me to get the shit done. Everyone knows how much I love Beyonce as I woke up this morning at 6am I thought to myself "I wonder what inspired her to write [Ego] my favorite song" I know I have a big Ego and confidence for days cant nobody tell me nothing...excuse me are you saying something?

I cant wait to go home for Thanksgiving break. They say Home is where love is at well ain't that the truth this has been a rough semester but we all know why I am in school :) smiles

I need some new sneakers......MOMMY!!!!!!!

I'm hungry and didn't make it to my 8 o'clock

I miss my best friend she is my everything and keeps me in line....

The clock say 8:51 and I need to get to my 9 o'clock

and I wonder..........................

signed

"I have an alter ego as well...always did I'm a Gemini"

d a v e

Hustla!

People say I'm on my grind

but I don't even notice it.

If you ask me , I'm far behind...but at least I am doing something.

People say I am chasing my dreams but to me I'm trying to build a career.

I will do what I have to do to be able to do what I want to do.

People say i'm ambitious but I would say i'm frustrated...

Frustrated that things don't move fast enough.

People say i'm young take it slow...youth fades fast, So dream big now...

signed

"Today isnt a good day"

d a v e

Random Thoughts

As a man I would teach my son to love himself, to enjoy his youth, to respect women.

I would let him know there is no one right way to success and that life is a series of risk.

I would teach him to take care of himself, how to manage money and how to manage people.

I would teach him how to open doors and pull out chair and how to properly approach his desires. I would teach him how to read people and poetry.

I would teach him how to dress,and to pray, and that yes he too is beautiful.

I would teach him about hard work...

I would teach him things as a male that I had to learn on my own.

I would teach him to love his mother and take the words of his father to heart

Yup that's what I would teach my son....

In class at 11:45 and my mind is in so many other places.

I wonder what life would have been like with two parents instead one.

Oh well LIFE was and still IS Good!

signed

"I aint had no daddy around while I was growing up thats why Im wild and I dont give a fu*k"

d a v e

Whats Beef?

I know that I have been gone for a minute I need to find some time for my BLOG I kind of lost inspiration and I need to re -find it Dave Whats The Word has just began.

Now back to bloggin!!!

Beef is when supposedly grown men "Goons" define manliness for all black males.

Today as I awoke, through my door I heard my neighbors/dorm mates discussing me, and how I had a different vibe, and as I listened to their in depth conversation about me and how my differences must mean that I am less of a man and more than that, some other things.

As I continued listening I think I heard them talking about acts of violence against me ( I really hope they no better...because everybody has got somebody if you know what I mean trust I might be all nice and quiet and shit but I can mos def hold myself down ). So in my head begins this thought process...

Identity. I dont know what the case is with identity but everyone needs one. Some people let others dictate their identity, dictate their manner of speech and way of dress, this even extends to letting someone dictate how far you will go in life. It's not a struggle to be yourself, the struggle is trying to be like everyone else.As for me, I'm soft spoken, I love smart conversation, I enjoy art and other cultural things, I say hi to evryone, I dress different than my counterparts, basically I do me. You wont find ME spitting rap lyrics 24 hours a day or in any OD BIG CLOTHES because I'm not letting culture dictate or define me.

I will define the culture. At the end of the day, no matter how I choose to carry myself I'm still a man, and I will deal with any other man...man to man.We don't have to be friends, we don't even have to be neighborly, infact we can fight all day like cats and dogs and it's really nothing to me. But Please if you claim to be a "Goon" young men know that gossip is something females do.

To other young men...Don't let the culture portrayed to you, define you. We live in a time where those before us bore the weight of discrimination and racism.

A lot of us don't have any idea of what racism really is. So now as a people we are trying to find ourselves, and too often we let music execs and ceo's at fashion company tell us we are goons and goblins who wear baggy jeans sell dope, fight in the street...and though it is a way of survival and reality for many, young black men we are so much more that what we are told we can be...and thats beef. When I see my neighbors tonight I',m going to conduct myself as a man, and whatever jumps off....jumps off.

I have to leave it at that I'm sorry I had to vent and get that shit off my chest

People crack me up male/female it seems like right before the season changes everyone be on there shit and Im tired of it

signed

"Keep playing with me I am up for the games"

d a v e :) smiles

Carpe Diem

So on top of the world,

That in 24 hours the weight of the world...

Is on your shoulders again.

That just seems to be the rotation of things.

I sit and look at Venus,And hope she can't see me staring through the grape vines.

I clinch this rosary so tight and recite

Bible verses as though they were lines from my favorite play.

My life isn't anything like broadway.

These days I seem to pray,God just keep me and make a way,

And help my Grandmother feel better today.

My biggest fear is to have my heart brake and become undone.

Any given day I find myself lost,In a sea of thoughts and unchained melodies.

I think of all the strange fruit and funny valentines,and how I'll be seeing you in all the old familiar places,And how traces of these songs haunt my face.

apparent in my blank expression and blatant digression to prescribed perceptions.

I know man can not live on bread alone,

And I know the most desperate bible verses...Because my thirst is, Happiness.

Carpe Diem.

signed

D a v e

Blue

Red please come and change my blue today.

Make it purple, because purple they say is the color of royalty.

Or maybe yellow come change my blues to green.

Because green represents growth and prosperity.

White maybe you can come and lighten things up

Blue I cant live with you lying to me everyday...

[Tired of shady friends this isn't Baldwin Hills or The Bad Girls Club its no reason for people in my life that are surrounded around me to throw shade.... take that shit back to where you picked up that horrible habit or maybe you was always shady from the start you don't like me and you feeling some type let a nigga know]

Aiyyo, I think about when a nigga didn't have and a nigga told a joke, and the bitches didn't laugh See now I do the math, I see if you got this and this and this to some cats, that nigga's the shit- DMX

Had to vent dave over and out now lets get down to business

Do All Cameras Flash.......

Temporarily Blinded.

you were impressed by the attention, the possibility of being recognized.

But...You were temporarily blinded by camera lights.

Do all the cameras flash, do they catch all your deeds,Are they suited for all your needs.

Can you hear the camera man plead.

Show me your face, who are you wearing on your waist.Is that a rock on your ring on your relationship hand?

You are temporarily blinded.

Because when the fanfare disappears,You are left with natural light.

Your prayers only reach the chandeliers....So I pray.In my prayer I will say...Let me keep encouraged like fine jewels in safe deposit boxes.

Let me keep integrity like close memories of loved ones.Let me keep my tongue like poisonous serpants in cages,Let me keep my site safe from temporary lights.

Let me keep faithful and nurture her like a newborn baby,Let me keep working because no one else is gonna save me,

Let me keep empty promises as reminders of how disappointment feels,So if I ever feel myself to much...

I can remember failure is real.Let me keep my youth but not for too long, because it is like the sickness of the lovelorn...it needs to go on.

Let me keep my goals because when I had no food my goals fed me.

Let me keep God first because he's never blindedWhen all the cameras flash

Whats The Word?

D a v e

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